Desperate hallucinations

Don’t you feel sometimes that your mouth cant utter a word despite your head is full of thoughts and words that you want to scream every single letter
Don’t you feel sometimes that you are angry yet you don’t have the luxury of letting it out to the open?
Don’t you feel sometimes that all the letters in the alphabet are never enough to explain all the feelings that are crushing your heart?
Don’t you feel sometimes that you want to bust in tears yet you can't shed any because you know that your tears will hurt someone else
Don’t you feel sometimes that you must hold the pain in your heart to protect someone you love from being hurt?
Don’t you feel sometimes that you just need to talk and he would listen but without opening your mouth
Don’t you feel sometimes that you must play calm when your veins are burning with boiling blood mixed with tears?
Don’t you feel sometimes that you wish that day just passes and carry away all what it holds within?
Don’t you feel sometimes that it is too hard to draw a smile on your face like a clown to hide your tears so he won't see them?
Don’t you feel sometimes that you just wish he could just understand you and feel you and tells you it is going to be alright?
Don’t you hate the feeling of being left out?
Don’t you wish that those moments just pass?
Don’t you hope that it never happened and that was all a big lie?
Don’t you disguise the feeling of the same shit happening all over again and simply you cant do anything to stop it cause you never did and you never will cause also you were never in control