The platform--episode 1

Episode 1---Finding my way:

On a very hot summer afternoon I was roaming around to find where can I buy a newspaper to take with me on the train, the place was too crowded and the voices were so loud that I can barely hear my thoughts.

While opening my wallet and paying the man the price I saw a woman standing around the corner holding five kids in two hands, she seemed so worn out and almost dying for a bench to throw her body on, I took the papers and started walking towards the platform to wait for my train, I have to memorize this place as I am going to be here everyday at 8.

The clock on the wall strike 7 and I knew it was too early but i would rather come early than miss my train. I recognized that I had a meeting at 12 so I have to work on my way till I reach there, I wasn’t thinking much about that as I was taken by the crowd around me and I thought why not open a conversation with the waiting others and this is what happened on the first day.

I walked to the corner where I found a bench, an old man was sitting alone, holding a hot glass of tea, his blue suit told me that he was a worker and the wrinkles around his eyes meant that he was in the late 50s, I can also count 3 to 4 black hair threads that I can spot under his hat. What amazed me the most is that he had this strange prolonged gaze at the tea as if he was lying under the sun on the beach enjoying his tea on his own…I walked toward him and I smiled and the conversation started with a "good morning ya hag"….

3am Hassan: Saba7 el ward ya benty

Me: Tell me ya hag, howa enta bet7eb el shay awe keda

3am Hassan: yaaaaaaaaaaah, da el yom mayb2ash yom men ghier kobayet el shay dee

(Me: smile)

3am Hassan: y3ny enty sebty el raseef kolo w gety tetkalemy m3a el ragel el 3agooz w sayba shabab zay el ward henak (Smile)

Me: Enta el kheir wel baraka ya 7ag, dana mabsoota enee wa2fa batkalem m3ak

3am Hassan: rabena yekremek ya benty, enty shaklek ray7a balad el ba7r, eb2ee salemee 3lieh w ew3ee el shoghl yakhdek w temsheesh ganbo w teshmee hawah (sigh)

Me: tesda2 ya 7ag, da awel yom leya henak, w lesa mesh 3arfa ha3mel eah, bafakar akalem modeeree yen2lnee hena asahal

3am hassan: shofee ya benty, el safar feeh saba3 fawayed, sa7ee7 ana mesh 3aref eah homa, bs homa alolna kda enohom sab3a, khodee menhom wa7da menee w ermee 7moolek 3al ba7r wenty rag3a w

ed3elee b2a

I smiled and heard the clock strike 8 and it was time for me to go, I greated the old man and waved to him and left. I stepped my foot on the train and searched for my seat, and the moment I placed my tired feet on the ground, I closed my eyes and laid my head back and smiled, I remembered the words of the old man "throw your burdens to the sea and come back empty handed"

Next episode….(The missing bag)

Blocks

All I can see now are loads of blocks that are making it impossible to even see the road ahead,
Blocks that are so high that I can't even seek the blue sky,
Blocks that are so solid that can't allow me to see through,
Blocks that are so strong that I cant even carry them away,
Blocks that are so hard that I cant dig a tunnel within,
Blocks that make me feel how small and weak I am,
Blocks that shows me the truth yet not showing me how to pass to it,
Blocks that bring tears to my eyes that flow and I can't stop them,
Blocks that yell at me that nothing I do is good enough to remove them from my way,
Blocks that made of me a hero to see them standing tall like landmarks and I cant help doing anything but watch,
Blocks that tears the last bond between me and life,
Blocks that keeps everything behind it that I cant even know what is lying on the other of it,
Blocks that are so dull as if it stole all the colors and captured it inside those huge cubes,
Blocks that are so harsh that I can't get near them or I will suffer from ever lasting scars,
Blocks that reflect the reality that I have been always trying to hide or run away from,
Blocks that arrested by smile and held in imprisoned till the day I part, blocks that shows me that finally I can't see anything but…those blocks

Whatever

Scattered pieces of a puzzle on the floor

A line that digs its way across the room

The sun ray that is fading in a dark corner

A foot step that follows another

A hand tied u to the arm hanging from a leg

A black carpet and an empty frame

Traces of smoke near the edge

A dusty piano and a fire place

A bottle of wine but with one glass on the table

A crawling old cat

Piles of papers with blood stains

Rain drops on the aisle

A few words next to a few letters that had no meaning

A dream of a smile on an engraved sad face

It is only an unfinished story that had no end

Or another unfinished tune that cant be ever played

حركة الشباب المستقل-خطوات ايجابية و جادة

Bassma Elrayan
ليك يا بلدى

بما ان كل المصريين نفسهم يشاركوا فى تطور بلدهم و النهوض بها و بشعبها عشان
تبقى احسن

و بما ان كلنا حابيين نساهم فى الحياه السياسيه بشكل عملي

و بما ان كل واحد فينا له صوت مسموح و بيفرق ف الانتخابات

و بما ان الاستفتاء اللي فات كان في ناس كتير قوى مش عارفه هى ليه بتقول اه او لأ

و ناس اكتر منزلتش من اساسه لأنها مش عارفه تقول ايه او مش حاسه ان صوتها هيفرق

و بما ان كلنا متفقين ان الثورة عظيمه بس مش ده اللى احنا كنا عايزينه بالضبط

و بما ان كلنا متفقين ان البلد دى و ناسها يستاهلوا احسن من كده بكتير

و بما اننا عايزين نبقى احسن و كلنا عايزين نبقى سياسيين

فواجب علينا نوعى الناس و نفهمهم علشان مينضحكش عليهم

و واجب علينا قبل اما نعمل حزب نفهم كل اهالينا و جيرانا و الناس اللى حوالينا

و واجب علينا نشتغل صح لجل ما صوتنا يوصل للى فوقينا

و ده طبعا عن طريق كل المصريين اللى هيفهموا حقوقهم القانونيه و الانسانيه و واجباتهم تجاه بلدنا اغلى ما لينا

و لأن كل واحد فينا يقدر يساعد بحاجه

و لأن كل واحد فينا لازم لبلده يعمل حاجه

ولأننا لازم نشتغل صح و مفيش قدامنا وقت نضيعه

و بما ان كل قصور الثقافه مفتوحه لتوعيه الناس سياسيا

ولأن فى شيوخ كتير متفقين معانا في فكرنا الوسطى الديمقراطى

ولأن فى متخصصيين هيدربونا و يشرحولنا مفاهيم سياسيه و حقوقيه

ولأن في أساتذة تنميه بشريه هيدربونا ازاى نوعى المجتمع و نتعامل مع الشارع بصفه عامه و السيايه بصفه خاصه

و لأن كل واحد فينا وجوده هيفرق ف مستقبل البلد

ارجوك ما تبخلش و ساهم معانا بوقتك و مجهودك

التدريب هيكون ف الدقى

و لمده 4 ايام

منهم يومين مسائى 4 ساعات ف اليوم و غالبا هيكونوا اربع و خميس

و يومين من 10 ل 6 و غالبا ما هيكونوا جمعه و سبت

و المجموعه من 20 مصرى بمختلف الثقافات و الاهداف و الافكار السياسيه او من غير و من مختلف المجالات و الاعمار و الدراسات و متفقين ف كونهم مصريين بيحبوا البلد و عايزين مصر تبقى احسن

و بعدين نبدأ الشغل

اشطر 2 او 3 فى المجموعه هيساعدوا ف تدريب المجموعه اللى بعد كده طبعا مع الاساتذة و الدكاترة المتخصصيين

و اللى ميقدرش ينزل يوعى الناس ف الشارع ممكن يعمل عمل سيكرتاريه ان شاء الله ساعتين ف اليوم تطوعا و هو اللى يحدد جدوله لنفسه بس مطلوب منه يلتزم بيه

و اللى مش قادر لا على ده و لا على ده و حابب يساهم ماديا عشان هنعمل كتب توعيه سياسيه بلغه الشارع ممكن قوى و يبقى كتر خيره

و على فكرة التدريبات مجانيه كله ف حب الوطن

مطلوب منك دلوقتى لو حابب تشارك لأننا هنبدأخلال ايم تبعت لى اسمك و رقم تليفونك و بريدك الالكترونى و اسم المنطقه اللى انت ساكن فيها و يا حبذا لو علاقتك بالسكان هناك و تصورك لنوعيه الناس اللى فيها و لو فى مراكز شباب قريبه ليك و تقر استعدادك للعمل التطوعى فى سبيل بلدك "مصر" لو غاليه عندك شارك معانا لأنهنا محتجالنا كلنا


ابعت لى ايميل بعنوان ليك يا بلدى على

bassmaelrayan@yahoo.com

Egypt---how to pass on from the cross roads--my humble point of view

This afternoon while I am in that status; as of course that I am unemployed thank god, I had this idea, Cairo Stadium…don’t laugh…just hear me to the very end of it and then judge
I saw people, millions just sitting and camping in Cairo Stadium where no one can tell them you are hindering the progress or against the re-building of our country. If we can just STAND there like we did in Tahrir for ONE FRIDAY and from there have a podium and we already have a screen and take it from there, here is what I thought of:
Location: Cairo Stadium-Suggestion
Required Number of attendees: the more the better but not less than 1 Million
Objective: Continue the unfinished and reach the rest of the resting people and to talk in simple words to reach everyone at home with no big words
What is it: Press conference where we already have the giant monitor and the tools to go “live” on National TV and say what we cant say in the streets due to the power of “thugs” on all levels
Urgent Presence: All of those who were there in 25th of Jan and among them all the parties aside from MB
What do we want now with a time frame….

1. Public Trials for: Mubarak and his family (Max by June 2011), El Adly and his crew (Max by 15th  of May 2011), Fathy Soroor, Safwat El Sherif and Zakareya Azmy and Ministers who were pressed charges against them (Max  by end of April 2011), Business Men in trials (Max by Mid April 2011). And all that applies
2. Denial, termination and Rejection of the Democratic Parties membership and the deprive of all its listed and announced members to take part in the political system for at least 5 years
3. Ministry of Defense in Alliance with Ministry of Interior: Formulation and announcement of Anti Thugs campaign (Max by 10th of April) in an organized way which entails forming groups along the map with a plan to kill this in a period of max 40 days from the announcement of commencing their activities. حملة لمواجهة البطجة
4. The protection of summits and functions that will be held by parties to address the public
5. The Army as in charge to:
   1. Enforce a law to allow each party for max participation in the parliament of 10% and independent members to be limited to 5% (or something along these lines)
   2. Enforce a law of immediate penalty against any Media channel that directly influences the public opinion using religious implications or participating in spreading rumors or insulting a public figure
   3. Immediate transfer of the MF from the accounts of those who were accused guilty from the above mentioned to the National Treasury of Egypt and the Central Bank
   4. Enforce and take immediate actions against anyone who breaks the law on all levels from stealing lands or murders and so on and so forth
   5. Enforce an immediate law for those who refuse to go on with their jobs from governmental authorities or MOI to be penalized at once

This is my opinion and what I have came up with after we reached that stage, we don’t want to sit and fight against one another, we would rather continue what we have already started
I am not ofcourse a person of law or politics so the way of putting it was so simple yet we can re-frame it , especially the time frame that needs a legal point of view
I don’t belong to any party and I am not an activist or a political expert but this is my point of view that may be of value to pass this cross road era

رساله غرام

قد لا اكون الاجدر بالحديث عنك لكنى اعلم جيدا انى ساحدثك من قلبى

قد لا اكون سياسا او اقتصاديا او حتى املك من العلم أو اوتيت منه ما يكفي

قد لا اجيد اللعب بالكلمات او رصد الحقائق او سرد الاحداث

و لكنى اعلم جيدا انى ساحدثك من قلبى

قد تكون ملكتى فى الوصف ضعيفة او تكون لغتى ركيكة

و من الممكن ان اكون اخفقت فى حقك يوما

او سرت فى طريقى و لم ابالى

و لكنى اعلم جيدا انى ساحدثك من قلبى

و اليوم....و لم اكن اعلم انه اليوم

جئت اليك احبو و امد يدى يا امى

 احبك ...نعم احبك

قلتها يوما فسخر الجمع منى

احبك...نعم احبك

و لا يهمنى اليوم فى حبك لومة لائم

احبك...نعم احبك

و ساجمع من قلبى الحب لاهديه اليك يا امى

احبك...نعم احبك

سأجوب الطرقات حاملا حبك فوق رأسى

وأدافع عن حبى و لو كلفنى ما تبقى من عمرى

و اقولها على الملأ ....

احبك...نعم احبك

Falling in love is just a state of mind

Falling in love is just a state of mind
Falling in love depends on the chemical composition of your brain at a certain time, it gives u impulses that you need something so bad and that thing shows clear that you think that you are in love
You don’t need someone in your life to be in love, this is the greatest mind game ever
You need to open your heart and think positive and see bright and when your brain starts recognizing these impulses it sends signals to the heart that you are in love, sometimes by coincidence when this happens you start thinking about someone in specific, may be because that someone shared moments with you or may be because you like them, but definitely it is you that is sending the signs of love cause your brain and heart and in that state of mind
If you watch a romantic movie and your heart starts to tickle, that means that because your eyes have witnessed on screen something and because of course that movie shows you how great and sweet love is, again you start thinking about love…and how you are in love, and may be this time you will feel the need and the urge to have someone with you
Love is a combination of needs that any person on earth long for but again it is not a pure feeling that strikes your heart and that silly crap that we all think it is…It starts by the need and the readiness of your brain to be in love and then you take the cycle of wanting something that you see in a movie or listen to from a song or a story from a friend, then your brain starts moving in this direction finding who is also in this status within your zone of comfort, and when you find that someone your brain starts receiving all the signals that this is the one cause simply this is what you want and not the truth of what is there….
So what I was thinking about is that you don’t need someone in your life to complete your love feeling, you can be in love for the sake of love, as you can direct your mind and control it in a way to make use of those impulses to love worthwhile things, like loving your life (Satisfaction), loving your family (Family bonding), loving to do right things (being good), loving your job (to be good at it), and finally if that one person….But wait…If that one person only is the right one for you…not just you are in love with them…how can you do this!! Of yes…isolate your decisions from your needs…Look at the whole picture without thinking of what you want and what you need ….
Love is a state of mind…..